~b'd@Y~LOL

today was my friend's b'day..actually, a lot of my friends' birthday...lol...
Just now,we celebrated pumpkin's birthday at bakery in pusanika...haha..it seem is our bio geng's tradition already coz everytime when there is someone birthday in our geng,we'll definitely go to bakery to pusanika to celebarate..haha..=D

very happy coz we still stick together..hopefully all of us we still keep up our tradition until we graduate..although some of us will be separated coz of our different major..i still hope that we will be still stick together as a geng..wakaka...

~FoUnD~

i manage to find my water bottle yesterday...thanks to one of my friend,mee teng...
thanks o...=P
thanks to joanne as well..LOL

the water bottle is not just a simple bottle..
it has some reason behind it for me to care so much of that bottle..hehe...

~tRuE fRiEnDs#iPs~

True Friendships

This is sage advice for those who have been fortunate enough to find that one true friendship. Or perhaps you have maintained friendships from your days in elementary school. Whatever the case, friends are previous gifts we give to ourselves.

As children, friendships are vitally important, most notably as it relates to the socialization process. Meeting a new friend the first day of school is essential, especially if one is particularly shy. Perhaps another girl would sense the shyness and offer a hand in friendship. Forming friendships with others from different cultures enhances a child’s early experiences as well, and plants a seed that is healthy and which can be nurtured throughout life. But, preserving friendships are often difficult, even under the best of circumstances. Whether a friend moves away; or leaves school; or becomes ill, it is especially hard on a child. They are resilient, however, and somehow cope with the loss.

As the child becomes a teen, the word friendship takes on a different connotation. While some teens exhibit the closeness and bonding prevalent during their parents’ day; others are not so conducive to this type of friendship. Instead, they form gangs which they refer to as their family, and commit acts which were unheard of twenty or thirty years ago. It makes one wonder if this type of friendship is born out of a home where caring and nurturing is non-existent. Or has peer pressure to act and dress a certain way erased all that was taught in the early years of their childhood. Girls become vicious to each other; more so than boys, and it’s inconceivable that a meaningful true friendship exists in that environment.

Perhaps as we grow older, the child in us returns to the very first day we attended school. We appreciate and value the friends we’ve made in our adult life because they ground us; keep us balanced; watch out for us; protect us; care and help us when needed. True friendships require no expectations; they are unconditional by nature, and bring out the very best of who we are. We rely on each other for comfort; rant and rave knowing our friend will simply listen; discuss issues which we are passionate about, knowing we will be understood. Laugh together; cry together; then eat ice cream while laughing all the more. How rare is that kind of friendship? How blessed are we to have a true friend who will allow us to be who we are, without judgment. Yes, very rare indeed.

As we reach our golden years, our friends may have passed on, but the memories are still intact. We take out the old scrapbook and reminisce as we thumb through familiar pictures. Suddenly, we laugh and look to one side saying, “Remember……” then stop. A single tear falls down our cheek. We look up and smile because the years have not taken away the recollections of our youthful days, nor has the light of true friendship been extinguished...

P.S:
So never end the friendships....some people end it coz they never realise how important frienship is or they never cherished the friendship for the 1st place.
Remember never take friendship as granted...

wish i can fly....

i dunno how to begin this.i really wish i can fly...i wish i can be flying like bird...flying high in the sky without any worries....i have so many problems d lately...i wish i could just cry out but can't...sometimes i hold back my tears....it's kind of hard to do it...but i have too.......

i'm not sure whether must i trust back someone who already broken the trust in between us?????
it's easy r her to tell everyone that "she want to regain back friendship with someone" but she'll never told the truth that she had hurt that person so many times intentionally or unintentionally..the truth is still hidden.....
i dunno why i feel so sad when i had to write this....
i just hope that person can just leave me alone for some time
i still have so many things to bother...i have no time to play this kind of "hide&seek" game with her.sometimes,i feel she like a small kid only...just like to have fun& dun try to care for other people's feeling...

i'm very tired...
maybe she never realised that why we have such a big gap now in between our friendship..coz we seem from different world...You keep saying that i create the gap between us but why u never think who is the one who create this gap at the first place...sometimes u make ur close fren think i'm a bad person..u never how that feelings is....

she will never understand other people's problems...

I told her once when i have problem but i felt so sad when she didn't try to listen when i told her about my problem...maybe she is just a friend that only can share your happiness but will never share ur sadness & ur problem..
From that onwards i decided that i will never shared my problems d....

people who never gone through the hard time will never try to understand other people's hard time...especially someone that have being pampered a lot by their parents since they are small.....sometimes she never think before she said something..
she'll never know other people's suffering...



about the friendship between us,i just let God plan the best solution....

~In LoVe~

In love with fish leong's song-qing ge.......so nice......wah...lol

~WiS#eS~

wish miracle could happen-this was my b'day wish this year..
Wish miracle could hppn in my family for at least once....
wish my bro can change into new leaf.........
wish he won't b so bad-temper anymore...........when see he fight with other ppl......
wish he won't give much trouble to the family any more...
wish nobody in my family get hurt..................
wish all my family members won't argue among themselves......feel so sad whenever i see them argue....i juz can't do anything....
wish i can become happy-go-lucky person again....
wish i could meet with my hometown frens again........all of them.....
wish i can go back during the 3rd sem that i'll be taking in may& june.....
wish my smile can come back........
wish i can have a good laugh
wish i won't b so blur-blur anymore.......lol..
wish my friendship with my room mate will b better.....
wish everything willl b ok in my life........................................


will all my wishes come true????????????

wish i have a lot $$$

Wish i can escape from the life i have now....think of running away before but i can't just leave my family alone..
What to do if you have a bro who keep borrow money from loan sharks & the loan sharks keep coming to your house to ask for money..Why can he remember what happened to our family when he borrowed money from loan sharks before in 2005?why can't he change?where is the salary he got go? Did he went to gamble again?i have no idea.why must he go gamble?He already did not contribute any money to the family and keep asking money from my mom whenever he need money.i feel so sad to see my mom has to give him the money that she need to buy her own medicine.. i wish i have more money so that i could give my mom.Whenever people ask me what is most important to me..My reply is "To Have lot& lot of $$$$."
wish i can settle all my family's financial problems..people who never gone through the life i went to through will never understand "how HARD life is".

Luckily,i'm back to my uni when the loan sharks come to our house..if not,i dunno what will happen..i knew about the loan sharks things when i called my mom.i knew inside her heart,she is very sad..Did u ever see your mom cry before?i did..how sad & how hurt you will feel..I did not tell any of my friends about it.coz i did not want them to ask me lot of questions..maybe i am afraid..I am afraid about what other people will think about my brother...
Now all of my friends are having exams,so i do not want to disturb them..maybe i juz want to escape from telling my friends i guess..

whenever people tell me that i am tough..i wish i could tell them that i am actually quite a timid person..coz of my family's condition,i have to act tough...

i really dunno what or how to tell people whenever they ask me about my bro.
what else i told them..many people(especially my relatives) already considered my bro as the black sheep of our family d.
Wish my bro could turn to a new leaf..will this wish come true???????????

Now,I'm having exams as well.Wish i could fully concentrate on my studies.....

~Hectic day~

I feel very tired nowadays. The burden I carried became heavier than before. Sad because nobody seems able to help me out. What to do? Today I did a very bad things during my field methods trip to the Fernarium( Taman Paku Pakis). It makes me looks ugly or even looks like a bad person. I have no choice. Guess what I did? I scolded my group members for coming late. When I called one the member who is a Malay guy, he told me that he just wake up. Guess what I did again? I scolded him quite badly in the phone& other coursemates look at me. Then, I scolded other three of the guys in my group as well. Maybe they had regretted to join my group already. What to do? Nobody want to do the bad person character – to scold the late-comers. Imagine they late for nearly half an hour. Then ,the other member late for nearly one and a half hour. Imagine I am the person who do not like to scold people. Nobody know how I felt after I scolded people. I feel sad but what to do I need to hide it. I even scolded one of my friends who came late also. What to do? I have to be fair. Maybe she has grew to dislikes me already. What to do?Another friend will think why must I scold them? Why? The reason is I want them to be punctual and do their work well. It is a group project. I do not want to delay anymore.I really very tired. Imagine I have to carry my family’s burden in shoulder since I born. What should I do?
Imagine yourself need to take care of your family’s name because one of your family member keep ruining the family’s name. I need to take care of my family’s name because I am very to see my parents being look down by other relatives. What to do if you born to not-so- rich family? What to do if your parents cannot afford to pay for your fees when you are in secondary school? What to do if your brother keep ruining the family’s name?
What to do if you want tuition for subjects that you are weak in but cannot do it because of family’s condition?
What to do if you have no other choice in your life?
I keep telling myself that I can control my destiny-in order to hang on to my life for so long.
I cannot give up my family. Without them, I would not be in this world also.
I just really need to hang on..
Imagine if one day, I just let go everything. What will happen ?
If your heart no in it. What will happen?
Because of so many things that I need to handle at time, I really did not laugh for quite long already when I come to UKM..sad.. I can make other people around me laugh but nobody able to make me laugh. “Where is the bright smiling face that you used to have last time?”-one of my close friend in hometown ask me. “where has it gone?”-other friend ask.. I do not how to tell them.
Some of them asked me to come back to my hometown-they did not like to see me like that..
What can I do to bring back the bright smile in my face again?
What to do if you want to smile but need to sigh instead?

Sigh…

~meaning of friendships~=)

What would you do if every time you fell in love with someone you had to say good-bye?


What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?


What would you do if for every moment you were truly happy there would be 10 moments of sadness?



What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?





What would you do if you loved someone more than anything else and you could never have them?



Some people live and some people die.



But I want to tell you I love you and you are a true friend...



That I will always be here for you when and if you need me...






If I died tomorrow, you would be in my heart forever..





Would I be in yours?





You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don't talk that often the next year, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.





So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life.






I look up to you, respect you, and truly cherish you






Remember, everyone needs a friend, someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this e-mail and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will


I LIKE
MY FRIENDS ALWAYS &
FOREVER! ! !

~t O Re@LiSe~^.<

To realize
The value of a sister/brother
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of nine months:
Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother
who has given birth to
A premature baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person
Who has missed the train, bus or plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person
Who has survived an accident...

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics

Time waits for no one.

Treasure every moment you have.
You will treasure it even more when

you can share it with someone special.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.

~fOr UKM students only~

Hi all,

I'm just here to share what I've just learnt from a friend - how to download past year papers from PTSL digital library. Cool huh? =P

step 1:
go to http://ptsldigital.ukm.my/


step 2:
key in your user name : substitute the alphabet 'A' in your matrix number with digit one '1'
example: A123456 becomes 1123456 and the password is the same as the one you use to borrow books in the library

step 3: in the database, search for "KERTAS SOALAN"

step 4:
key in the code of your course.
Example: If it's TITAS ZZZT1012, just key in ZT1012
if it's VVVB1493, just key in VB1493

step 5:
click "VIEW DOCUMENT CONTENTS"

step 6:
click "KERTAS SOALAN" to download.



For your information, some codes are not updated. The system is still using the 'old' code.
For example, for those taking TITAS this semester, (if you refer to your exam slip), the code is ZT1033, but it wont be available in the database.
I was told that the 'old' code was ZT1012, so i tried and i found a few sets of past year questions.



For more information, please consult the librarians at 'Kaunter Perkhidmatan Pelanggan, PTSL'


Best of luck for Finals!