Sunday, January 18, 2009

A PiEcE oF mInD....

Everyone in this world must has a piece of mind that they still remember..maybe it's something happy or sad..
The piece of my mind is something sad...It's happened to me few months ago or weeks ago.I felt being betrayed by someone I trusted as a friend.It started with the new year's gathering with the seniors..It's kind of sad when u being betray by a close friend..I can still feel the impact until now..Maybe because I still treat her as a friend..During the dinner,my close friend left me out in that dinner& make me look like a fool..At first,I thought it's alright.After that dinner,we went to watch movie with the seniors.. Things get worse when we were on the way there..She keep ignoring me& as if she do not know me at all..She treat me like a stranger there..when i found out that she used me to achieve her motive,i really felt very angry&obviously sad..When I first meet her,she already had the motive in her minds..Last time,she told me that she do not know how to make friend with people.Her motive is to used me to make friends with people&dumped me aside after she did it with my help...I never expect her to that to me..But what can I do???After these few weeks,I just realized that if i still keep that piece of mind that my so-called close friend betray me,what will i get???I'll get nothing..At the end,I am the one who get mental torturing not her..So,i just take the initiative to let go the piece of mind that bothering me..I am feeling better now..I know that it'll take time for me to mend the wounds..then a friend from my hostel came to me&she told me that maybe the so-called close friend I knew had change or maybe she is not the friend that i imagined when i first meet her..everyone in this world is different..My friend told me not to get to deep with that so-called close friend that keep hurting me & never ever realized she had hurt me so badly..Right now,i still talk to that so-called ex-close friend..I still treat her as a friend but not the very close one anymore..I feel more happy right now..because i have start to let go the piece of mind that keep torturing me..I pray that this friend will never used this kind of tactics to know new friends& dumped her old friends like she did to me before..I hoped that she will realized her mistakes one day...maybe,she need time i guess...so,no point for me to cry over a spill milk..our friendship can't returned as we had before..Life must go on anyways..I'm happy to be my own self rather than acting as somebody...haha....